Didn't I fool myself again...

 I have promised myself that I won't fall into the trap of a ''situationship" again. Well, I did! How many times am I going to allow myself to be so good to others? I end up being disappointed.

As a man you a raised to respect females. To love and cherish them. I learned important values such as loyalty, commitment, and honesty. These values have shaped me into becoming the nobleman that I am.

BUT...

If the same women I am taught to treat like queens don't respect me, what can you do? It's funny that society has pictured men to be cold. To not give a damn! This will make females love them.

Is this the way men are supposed to live their life? I know that I am a gentle and friendly person. I am not cold. I have tried it once, but it felt as if I was trapped in another person's body. Or worse it felt as if a legion of demons were inside me.

I was genuine. Time and time I tried to be Mr. Right. I would be a shoulder to cry on and I will still be rejected. How I don't know.

A woman would walk in your life saying she's tired of the abuse of her partner. She wants to be with you. You treat her like royalty. Not long enough, she leaves you. She's going back to that cold man. She will apologize to him. She will make him a better man. And the cycle continues, you being the fool.

I wonder when society will change the perception of how men should be. There are good men out there. Men that are soft and gentle. Men waiting eagerly to be loved. Not all men are trash, you know.

Some men still long for that good feeling of love! It is not all about sex. Yes, it is needed, but there's more. Playing hide and seek in the park, running in the flower fields and taking photos and reminding each other of the depth of your love.

It is my special prayer that I would meet someone who knows how to love the right way. And for all the good men out there.

If love is genuine, it won't hurt. You won't even think about cheating. It will always remind you of the time for you to go home at night to your partner. It will make you think before you talk. It will remind you of that good morning and goodnight text.

Although society has made the Alpha male be seen by their physical appearance, it will always be what's inside that prevails. If your heart is loving and friendly, you deserve better chief!